Karma....

Everything happens for a reason, regardless of whether or not I understand why certain events happen, I know that there is a divine reason to it… that there is a method to the madness in which we call life… aside from that, I know that I have the strength to make it through whatever comes my way, regardless of how helpless I may feel at a particular moment – I know the strength exist inside of myself, I just need to conjure it up… I haven’t had a terribly difficult life if I want to be honest with myself, but I’ve been in some rotten situations in my life… situations that have knocked me completely off of my feet, but here I am today standing just as tall as ever…

I use to handle things to badly, whenever life was difficult, I always managed to make it worse by being self-destructive, turning to things that would temporary make me feel better, but were ultimately bad for me in the bigger picture of life… and I’m not sure what’s worse, that I was self-destructive or that I knew I was being self-destructive and still did it anyways… as tempting as it may seem, self-destruction is not a choice for me anymore, the consequences are much too steeper now… the other side of self-destruction, or rather another form of self-destruction is revenge against those that have hurt me. Revenge is only a temporary happiness to see someone else suffer like you’ve suffered, but what’s worse than revenge is Karma… its karma, and my good-naturedness, that have always kept me from going down the path of revenge no matter how tempting or easy it would have been… in the current situation that I’ve found myself, I knew I wasn’t going to be self destructive, but I did seriously considered revenge, doing something that was completely out of my character so that I could have that temporary happiness to see the other parties suffer like I was/am… but my senses quickly got the better of me, and I realized that karma would take care of them for me, and that I didn’t need to do anything… also, in plotting revenge against them and stooping to their level, I was only setting myself up for karma to repay me later in life with an unpleasant surprise… so more for my sake than for theirs, I find myself taking the higher road again!

And one would think that as many times as I’ve taken the higher road, that karma would repay me with some pleasant surprises… well, maybe karma isn’t paying me back in the way I expected, but if I want to be honest I have nothing in life that I can complain about – and there are very few people who can truly say that, and if that isn’t karma working in my favour, than I don’t know what is… so as I continue my journey on the high road, I hope I can keep my focus on what’s right, and not on what would feel good right now…